01
Dec
07

A Song to Sing…

My mood is somewhere below sea level…  The disturbing dreams at night don’t help.  If it’s not an unreal forecast for the future, it’s the spectres of my own past dancing behind my eyelids that have me lying awake for half the night.  What is odd is that I usually don’t dream.  Once in a blue moon maybe and even then remembering what I dreamed about is even rarer so to have these shadows dancing around me even after my eyes open is quite disconcerting.

I must confess to becoming a real YouTube junkie in the wake of my revitalized crush on the ‘man-band’ Take That.  In my present state of being haunted by all the chapters I thought closed in this book that is my life, found this song to be be too depressingly apt.  Makes me wonder what it is about being in a relationship even when it is bad for you that awakens such a masochistic streak in so many women?  Is it simply the ‘solace’ of having somebody there?  Doesn’t matter if the only proof of his existence is in the torture he inflicts on us.

In today’s world, where technically a woman is better equipped to handle life even in the absence of a male counterpart thanks to education, or changing social trends or whatever than before, why is the insecurity of women higher in terms of needing a man to give meaning to her existence?

Nonetheless, I found myself actually humming along to this…  Might as well complete the picture!

Leona Lewis – Bleeding Love

Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love

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1 Response to “A Song to Sing…”


  1. 1 UD
    Saturday, December 1, 2007 at 22:58

    Explaining the need for a relationship is such a difficult thing. But your one sentence caught my attention : “Doesn’t matter if the only proof of his existence is in the torture he inflicts on us.” Its not that bad..or is it? Its not supposed to be like that! And if its like u said it, then im goddamn glad i have had the best times of my life with him and vice versa. Theres alwasy some pain, if there is to be pleasure. Just enough pain. No more and no less.
    I dont think i make sense. I dont want to, either :S


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